Friday, February 4, 2011

It's All About Love (5: Final)

This is, I think, my last post on this topic called "It's All About Love." While this may be the last post, it certainly is not the end of the journey. In the past few weeks, I feel like God has "called me out" with the simple question, "Mike, do you love me?" It's a familiar that Peter had to face three times (see John 21).

Consider this question; "If you died today, what would you be remembered for?" Or if that question seems too morbid for you, how about this simple question; "what are you known for?" Are you known for passionately loving God through Jesus? Are you known for having great faith?

I shared with a friend today that I want to be known by God, and I want to be known by the enemy. I want God to know me as one follows Him whole-heartedly; as one of His "special forces" whom He can ask to do anything, knowing the order will be carried out because of my love for Him. I want the enemy to know me as one who is dangerous to his efforts; one he has to keep an eye on. My greatest fear would be not to be known by either.

Don't get me wrong; I believe that my name is written in the Book of Life forever, and yes, God absolutely does know my name. But beyond that, does He beam with pride when He looks down on me? Or does He grow frustrated, as a loving Father can be frustrated by a son who keeps on making silly mistakes that take him off the greater path.

If you, like me have wrestled at all with living a passionate love relationship in response to our creator, then know that you are in good company. To be in a position where we are constantly seeking intimacy with God...this is a good place to be. Remember, the righteous live by FAITH. Not by sight, not by our own understanding, but by Faith. His promise that we will find Him is a promise fulfilled when we seek Him with our whole being.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:13)

Has the flame of your love grown weak? If so, go back...back to the joy of His salvation. Go back to what your life was like or would be like apart from Christ. Live in that place awhile...I mean really imagine a life with no savior. And let what God has done for you wash over you all anew. And then, follow Him...all in.

Want more on this? Depending on where you're at in your journey, there are three books I'd recommend.
1. Struggle with understanding God's love for you? Read What's So Amazing About Grace - Phillip Yancey
2. Struggle with "working" or trying to "earn" God's love? Read The Prodigal God - Timothy Keller
3. Struggle with feeling luke-warm? Read Crazy Love - Francis Chan

I leave you with a song written by Josh Wilson. They lyrics to the chorus capture much of what I feel...

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

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