Friday, April 11, 2008

Jesus Wept

This has been a hard week for me. Why? My heart aches...I miss my Mom, and in many ways wish I could go back in time to the happiness and simplicity of childhood. It has worked itself out mainly through dreams; I've had troubled sleep, sad dreams, dreams where I'm crying and wake up my wife. How are we supposed to grieve?

On the one hand, this week has been amazing; I'm studying, preparing to preach a two-part message series on Grace, God's Love and the Relationship He's called us I've been studying I've been once again overwhelmed to the point of tears at how much love God has for us. It is staggering. But still, I am sad this week.

How are we supposed to grieve? At some level I understand and know that I am not grieving well. I think I'm stuffing the pain. But still, I'm not sure how I'm supposed to act?

And this brings me to John 11:35, the shortest verse in the Bible. "Jesus wept." My Savior knows suffering, knows loss, knows grief, knows pain. Does this make me feel better? No. But it does remind me that the intimate relationship God has called me to is with one who is familiar with pain and hurt. In short, I am not alone. And so, in my grief, I pray for you and for me...

"And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." (Ephesians 3:17-19)

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