Friday, September 21, 2007

Faith is like...

I want this blog to be "real" and so with that caveat, I say that the next few posts may or may not be the type of post you'd normally see on this blog.

Grief is a funny thing; one minute you're up, in your normal routine and then "wham!" - out of nowhere an emotion will hit you that you can't really control. Sailors call them rogue waves, Pilots call it wind-shear - it's all the same. Something unexpected hits you hard, seeking your destruction. This is how grief works. It comes and goes and can be set off by the smallest thing.

My Mom liked to collect these small turtles from Mexico. I had brought one of these things home with me and yesterday, I put a piece of scotch-tape on my computer monitor and mounted a little turtle there. Wham! Out of nowhere, an emotion hits and I break down. It's these little things that can hit you. Today I was in the auditorium by myself, sitting at the piano and worshipping when "wham" - I'm hit with the thought that were it not for my Mom, I would not be a pianist/worship leader or likely wouldn't be a musician at all. I will never see her again this side of eternity. This is hard to swallow...

Faith is the opposite of grief. It is constant - never changing, always sustaining, always whispering, carrying, holding, listening and understanding. Having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ is the greatest thing anyone on planet earth could ever have. With faith, there are no surprises, no rogue waves, no wind-shear. Faith is the rudder on a sailboat in a storm, it steers you through the rough waters, keeping you on an even keel, preventing you from fully capsizing.

This is where I am at right now - a small sailboat in the midst of a storm, feeling at times blown and tossed, but trusting a God who never fails.

1 comment:

Steve said...

Thanks Mike for being real... Miss you bro and sorry I can't be there through the grieving... Hang in there and continue to share the deep stuff...

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